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The challenge for week 4 was to document what one item you are always looking for. Is it the perfect pair of jeans, the perfect haircut? What do you always keep your eye out for. Well for me that was easy. I am always on a search for the perfect journal. I love paper journals and I always have to go look at what is new.

The challenge didn't end there. Once you had identified the frivolous item you are searching, dig a little deeper and find out what you are really searching for. This is the hard part. What am I searching for?

I have a great husband and we have a good relationship. We are striving to always communicate and work on our marriage.

I have roof over my head where only my husband and I live. This is what I always said I wanted when we lived with my mother-in-law.

I have a job that I enjoy going to. I have fun almost everyday.

All our bills are paid every month.

Is that enough? The answer is no. I still am searching for something.

We live in a townhouse that is all our own yet I want a house. A real house that we own where I can have a pet and maybe even kids some day.

While I enjoy my job, it isn't something that I see myself doing forever. I want a job that lets me have creative license. I have a short attention span and always need new challenges. I like that fact that at my current job when I am not busy I can surf the internet, write in my journal, read, collage, even work on my art journal. I still want something more...

All our bills are paid every month, but we always seem to have more. We don't seem to be able to save the money needed for us to buy a house or even for me to buy a new outfit.

I don't know. I thought writing this entry would help me gather my thoughts and dig deeper, but I am just as much in the dark as when I began.

I want to be my own boss.
I want creative freedom.
I want to live comfortably financially.

You see this list keeps getting longer and longer with I wants.

What is really important?

How little would I need to survive on?

I'll have to ponder this thought for awhile.