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I have been absolutely awful at updating this blog. I thought I would do better this year, but so far I'm not doing to good.

So let's see....
I had a great Valentine's Day. My hubby surprised me with gorgeous lavender roses, a heart balloon and the cutest little bear.
I applied for a position at work that I would have been great at.
I didn't get the job someone with way less experience and knowledge got it.
That Sucked!! I am still mad about it.
My husbands birthday is today so I get a day off of work to take him out to dinner. It should be fun.
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I have been really down since losing the job I wanted. It frustrates me when I am told by several supervisors that I should apply because I would be the best. It frustrates me that I am told that I am best for the position, but I don't have a degree. In everything I excelled and was first except for that stupid piece of paper. It makes me soooo mad. I really don't even want to talk to the person who got the job even though she is a friend. I need to be nicer and be happy for her. I'm working on it!!

The challenge for week 4 was to document what one item you are always looking for. Is it the perfect pair of jeans, the perfect haircut? What do you always keep your eye out for. Well for me that was easy. I am always on a search for the perfect journal. I love paper journals and I always have to go look at what is new.

The challenge didn't end there. Once you had identified the frivolous item you are searching, dig a little deeper and find out what you are really searching for. This is the hard part. What am I searching for?

I have a great husband and we have a good relationship. We are striving to always communicate and work on our marriage.

I have roof over my head where only my husband and I live. This is what I always said I wanted when we lived with my mother-in-law.

I have a job that I enjoy going to. I have fun almost everyday.

All our bills are paid every month.

Is that enough? The answer is no. I still am searching for something.

We live in a townhouse that is all our own yet I want a house. A real house that we own where I can have a pet and maybe even kids some day.

While I enjoy my job, it isn't something that I see myself doing forever. I want a job that lets me have creative license. I have a short attention span and always need new challenges. I like that fact that at my current job when I am not busy I can surf the internet, write in my journal, read, collage, even work on my art journal. I still want something more...

All our bills are paid every month, but we always seem to have more. We don't seem to be able to save the money needed for us to buy a house or even for me to buy a new outfit.

I don't know. I thought writing this entry would help me gather my thoughts and dig deeper, but I am just as much in the dark as when I began.

I want to be my own boss.
I want creative freedom.
I want to live comfortably financially.

You see this list keeps getting longer and longer with I wants.

What is really important?

How little would I need to survive on?

I'll have to ponder this thought for awhile.

I love this quote! I am going to use it for my week 3 art journal layout!

A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort. ~Herm
Albright

I am amazed at how well this describes me!

Jung Type Descriptions - INFP

creative, smart, idealist, loner, attracted to sad things, disorganized, avoidant, can be overwhelmed by unpleasant feelings, prone to quitting, prone to feelings of loneliness, ambivalent of the rules, solitary, daydreams about people to maintain a sense of closeness, focus on fantasies, acts without planning, low self confidence, emotionally moody, can feel defective, prone to lateness, likes esoteric things, wounded at the core, feels shame, frequently losing things, prone to sadness, prone to dreaming about a rescuer, disorderly, observer, easily distracted, does not like crowds, can act without thinking, private, can feel uncomfortable around others, familiar with the darkside, hermit, more likely to support marijuana legalization, can sabotage self, likes the rain, sometimes can't control fearful thoughts, prone to crying, prone to regret, attracted to the counter culture, can be submissive, prone to feeling discouraged, frequently second guesses self, not punctual, not always prepared, can feel victimized, prone to confusion, prone to irresponsibility, can be pessimistic