gomer-b

lately i have been feeling such a sense of deja vu. maybe it has something to do with starting a journal for the 1000_journals project. It reminds me of 6 years ago when i kept a journal similar to this new one. today i went to a coffee shop and sat outside with a chai and read a magazine. it reminded me of my best friend during that same period of time. we aren't friends any more. i guess we just drifted apart. today was the first time in a long time that i missed her. a lot of the feelings i had back then have come back. my body image issues just came rushing over me again. i would have thought in 6 years there would have been improvements instead of losing more ground.
even though i have gotten married and my daily life is so different i still feel the same. i keep trying to shake it off. it's just a weird feeling.